This Morning

This morning. Worst morning ever.

 Is it OK to feel homesick sometimes? Because this morning I have been feeling it A LOT. I will post more about the month of March (MA group!) and my SWEET friend Grace Payton who came to stay with me for a week (1D fans forever), but right now I just feel like missing my family, my country, my friends. I miss my mom, I miss my dad, I miss Bronwyn, Garrett, Carys, Anderson and Giovanni. I miss spending birthdays with family. I miss not having to go to the store and buy groceries myself, and not having to make my own meals (I know I sound spoiled right now - I just miss my mom's food!). I miss not having to deal with health problems and going to the doctor alone. I miss talking with my sisters, watching movies with my brothers and hanging out with friends at home. I miss BRAZIL. I miss Portuguese. I miss arroz com feijao. I miss my friends, I miss my church. I miss my church family. This morning, I have been missing a lot of things. When I woke up I cried and felt awful. I also had this awful feeling like I am not making a difference in the lives of anyone here at all. I know it is the devil that brings out those feelings in me, but today it just hit me hard - and I wasn't prepared for it.  I talked to my mom a bit on facebook about what I was feeling - how I wasn't sure if I would EVER know if I made an impact here or not, if this was a good decision or not, if I have been helpful in the lives of these kids or not. And she sent me this video. I would encourage you to watch it, because it was VERY inspiring to me.

Many of the men who built those cathedrals would never see their work finished - and they KNEW that. However, they didn't let that thought keep them from their job, from what they were called to do. They kept on working - many of them until they died. This video was an eye-opener for me. What kind of person would I be if I just got up and left this place - with only 6 weeks to go? Would that be fulfilling what God called me to do here? He didn't put 3 and a half months on my heart. He put 5 months on my heart. He put May 22nd on my heart, not April 22nd. He will give me the strength to finish these 6 weeks - and to finish STRONG. My dad always says that when you are running a race you must finish strong. That goes for ANYTHING in our lives - our job, our relationships, a simple task we set out to do. I pray that I will finish the work God has called me to do, and that I will finish with my whole heart dedicated to LOVING these kids. I will pray for the you to learn from that video and endure whatever hardships you are going through - and know that God will give you the strength to finish strong. Could you pray for me as well?